The passing of another year in one's life is met with a variety of feelings and reactions, often largely dependent on what particular year it happens to be. Well, this particular year happened to be the big one for me.
No, not that
big one. That's next year. But as I can't promise I won't be under 24-hour psychiatric care by then...
Now if you think I'm going to sit here and ramble on about getting old or the blinding speed of the passing of time, and that I'm gonna be all pensive and self-wallowing, well then, I must say, you know me quite well. Frighteningly well, as a matter of fact. It's actually making me a bit uncomfortable. Stop it.
Thirty-nine arrived this past weekend. And I turned and ran like a little girl. I'm so not ready for this.
When I think of thirty-nine, I think of a guy with a beer belly who's out of shape and helps coach his kid's little league team, but really has no clue what he's doing, and besides, his kid isn't even interested in baseball and would rather be in band but he continues forcing him into sports. No one in particular, just a general guy.
It just sounds so... grown-up. So... not me. And yet, it is me. There's nothing I can do about it. I mean, if Ponce de Leon couldn't find the Fountain of Youth, what chance do I have? Although with GPS technology being what it is these days... Hmm.
Anyway, I celebrated -- or more aptly, commemorated -- the occasion by having dinner in Nashville on Saturday night with friends. We ate at a Mexican restaurant called Tito's. Then I closed out the evening by singing their baby girl to sleep. My friends', not the restaurant owners'.
Sunday was spent with family, a blessing I treasure more and more as the years continue to pass. It nearly freaks me out every time we're out to eat and Mom orders off the senior menu. My Mom!? In my mind, she should still be forty.
How did this happen? Where did my thirties go? For that matter, where did my twenties go? And are they now in the same place comparing notes and saying things to each other like, "Really? He did the exact same thing when he was with me."
I know all the platitudes. Life begins at, er, after thirty-nine. Thirty-nine is the new twenty-nine, or whatever. But I, for one, happened to like the old twenty-nine just fine. In fact, I've made a unilateral decision: I will not be having any more birthdays.
Allow me to clarify. I'll still be accepting presents, I'll just no longer be counting years.
And heaven help the person who dares put an ad in the paper next year with a photo of Baby Bone that says "Lordy Lordy, Bone is..." Well, you know.
Anyway, I thank you for allowing me to freak out a bit as I prepare to approach that age which shall forever remain unspoken. Thus begins my attempt to ward off a crisis of the mid-life variety which, by some acounts, may have already begun. That should make for some fun blog posts in the coming year, wouldn't you say?
I figure at best, I'll continue to age gracefully and achieve my goal of being the youngest 39-year-old you know. At worst, I'll go kicking and screaming every step of the way, torturing myself daily with the question of what have I done with my life, and maybe wind up with my own Scott-Baio-Is-45-&-Single-esque reality show. Or at least, some good meds.
Either way, I realize that someday we'll look back on this -- yes, even this -- with wistful heart and older eyes.
"She said, you're pretty good with words, but words won't save your life. And they didn't, so he died..."
Labels: aging, birthday, Fountain of Youth, getting older, nashville, Ponce de Leon, Scott Baio, Tito's