I've been trying to smile the way I used to
Been trying to feel each moment rushing by
Been trying to savor every sip of whiskey
Not just swallow it down quick to numb my mind
Been spending more time watching the kids play
Been trying to go easier on myself
I don't know why, maybe it's just what happens
When you've read more pages than there are pages left
I don't get upset when I'm stuck in traffic
I'm not in any hurry to reach the end
Here's to my aging Gen X demographic
And childhoods the world will never know again
Been trying my best to carpe some diems
'Cause there are no more books on my bookshelf
Funny, ain't it, how carefully you turn them
When you've read more pages than there are pages left
Been trying to live life outside my phone
And stop thinking about the bad things at all
But it's hard to hear God's eastern bluebird's song
Over gunfire ringing out in third grade halls
Been trying to teach my kids to show kindness
There's already too much hate everywhere else
You think about the world and how they'll find it
When you've read more pages than there are pages left
Been trying to soak up each pink sky sunset
And the magic I've learned that every morning brings
My favorite place is where she and the kids are
Their smiles and hugs and laughter, my favorite things
I've been trying to smile the way I used to
Been trying to go easier on myself
Sometimes you'd like to start the book all over
When you've read more pages than there are pages left
